I’ve noticed recently, everybody always seems to have their own opinion on everything, even if its absolutely nothing to do with them, they still choose to share their opinion and ruin every little thing you have. It’s not fair. If I want to do something, meet somebody, be somewhere, everybody has to know about it, judge me for it, and decide against it just for their own happiness. Well what about mine!
All I truly would like is a private, non-judged life, away from all negativity shining off others, away from people who have to tell me what they think i should do, because you know what, I’m so fed up of hearing whats ‘right from wrong’, or what i should do according to the minds of nobody who I actually care so much to listen to.
No, I am to make my own decisions, make up my own mind to lead myself to happiness. I should not have to listen to others telling me absolute bollocks, if they’re my friends, they will support me, help me, and guide me my own way, not along with theirs.
Let’s put this into context. Fact of the day for you all, I’m bisexual, and proud. I recently met up with a guy, and we had a lot in common, he was mature, kind, funny, everything lovely, but I just wasn’t attracted to him at all. So it got me thinking, is that because he just wasn’t my type of boy, or because I’m more attracted to girls? I’m genuinely OK not knowing the answer to this, because you know what, life is all about discovery, the journey to finding yourself in all it’s glory, and right now, I’m heading down the right path. A girl messaged me the other day, a girl I have spoken to before but things didn’t go our way because of others influencing the way we thought. However this time, it’s not going to happen. Why should the past affect the future, why should I let what my ‘friends’ tell me push me away from something I might actually want, unknowingly.
I’m going to do whatever the hell I want to do, for my own happiness for once. I’ve been through enough pain and heartbreak in my life to then let others get in the way of mending myself. If I want to talk to this girl, meet her, date her, who the heck should care other than us! A private life = a happy life.
P.s … I’m not out to my family yet. The majority of my friends do know, as it’s been a year since my first girlfriend, the first person I fell in love with. However its been a very tricky journey amongst my family. They choose to believe a year ago was just a phase in my life, an experience, but they’re wrong, and I haven’t quite come to terms with how to tell them this. On the bright side, I told my sister, I was so incredibly nervous of telling her this, as it’s a whole part of my life I’m letting her into, but I’m so glad I made the decision to finally tell her because she was so prodigious with the situation and supports me all the way ❤ .
If anyone else has or is experiencing a similar story, I’d love to know how you’re dealing with it. We’re not alone.
Sprinkle glitter on the bland x